I went for a walk yesterday in the area to pick up some things. Enroute, I found myself at the intersection where, on March 6th, my world changed forever. It's the first time since that day that I found myself, on foot, in that area.
So, I decided to face a demon. I crossed the street and stood on the exact spot in the middle of the intersection, on the traffic island, where Kim was taken from us. At that precise moment, I felt a breeze and a sense of release. It may sound kind of corny, but I firmly believe my being there "sent a message". Kind of a hockey mentality.
We go through our lives these days, observing and encountering various "first days" (birthdays, holidays etc.). September 13 become one of those days, in a conquering kind of way. There are many battles to be faced. We take them one at a time.
Another demon has been conquered.....To the rest of them, don't fuckin' mess with me!
Wednesday 14 September 2011
Wednesday 7 September 2011
Just Thinking
It's 11:30 PM, Wednesday September 7, 2011, sitting here by myself in my quiet house. The kid is asleep. That's where I'll be soon.
I can't get over how quiet this place has become since Kim was taken away from us. She was the life of the party here. I've been on my Sabbatical for over a month. I'm getting itchy to do something work wise. I will, sooner rather than later.
These are just my rambling thoughts while I sit here in my funk. I really hate this. The fact that she was taken away from me and I hade no say in the matter. Because of a really fuckin' stupid mistake, I find myself in this position. Drives me nuts some days.
My family (and I include my in laws in that category) have given me lots of strength. Sharing with others is a blessing, especially with them. Time does heal all wounds, but I just wish it would hurry up, dammit.
Typing this out makes me feel like I am talking to someone, feels less alone. Perhaps this Blog will become my confident. The shoulder. You know what I mean.
Time to turn it.
See you soon.
I can't get over how quiet this place has become since Kim was taken away from us. She was the life of the party here. I've been on my Sabbatical for over a month. I'm getting itchy to do something work wise. I will, sooner rather than later.
These are just my rambling thoughts while I sit here in my funk. I really hate this. The fact that she was taken away from me and I hade no say in the matter. Because of a really fuckin' stupid mistake, I find myself in this position. Drives me nuts some days.
My family (and I include my in laws in that category) have given me lots of strength. Sharing with others is a blessing, especially with them. Time does heal all wounds, but I just wish it would hurry up, dammit.
Typing this out makes me feel like I am talking to someone, feels less alone. Perhaps this Blog will become my confident. The shoulder. You know what I mean.
Time to turn it.
See you soon.
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